May272012
Are you going to believe me or your lying eyes?
Regardless of whats been said or seen. I do prefer the company of women, making me a huge mega lesbian. I treat men how horny men treat women.
I’m not attracted to the male body I’m attracted to masculinity. I assure you the gold star is intact. The penis confounds me I don’t play with things i don’t understand like 5 speed transmissions,espresso machines, 5 cent slot machines, etc.
One day when my vag has dried all up and nothing matters I’ll give it go.
Top Surgery - It’s all the rage
But it’s also causing me problems the few people that i actually connected with (two) wanted to have top surgery. I’m not really into the post op chest. (I tried it no dice) I’d rather just not date someone than for them to know that a part of their body that they now like i do not. I’m sure there is some kind of psychological BS in my mind about this but I just can’t pin point why its such a turn off for me.
This habit could be costly for me. :/
Waiting
that’s it just waiting.
May262012
I would love to have sex in the missionary position with my life partner in a monogamous relationship.
This is my kink, my fetish that I have yet to work out. No porn of that.
April182012
Normally when I have to do things like this I am able to check out and things go smooth. I asked my mind to check out over two weeks ago but I’m still here.
What gives!?!?
I’m suppose to be on auto pilot surfing through life right now. I am currently super aware of my fate and the risk I take in life.
For a person trying to keep thier stress level down this is highly stressful.
Welp I leave next week to go back to the bay after they pushed my transfer back twice, It’s finally happening. My poor friends have been waiting so long I don’t think they believe it but the tickets been bought, don’t know what to say. It’s happening.
Some days I’m so depressed and stressed out I don’t know what to do and my anxiety doesn’t help it at all. It takes me hours just to talk myself up to do stuff. I already know the end reward for everything I’m going through is worth the stress.
A better life will never come to you, no matter how many lotto tickets you buy no one is going to give you the life you want. Its fucked up but if you want it you have to go get it. You have to take it.
postsecret.
